Last year the Lord started tugging at my heart to prepare me for missions. I have always been intrigued by the ability to go to another country to share the Gospel, yet was filled with envy for those with the opportunity to travel. I always thought that only the wealthy went, never did I realize that opportunity had no limitations or boundaries. Even through the knowledge of fund raising I still struggled with the comprehension of raising money for me to travel, to the other side of Earth, even if it is to spread God's word, while my husband would remain here still working 2 jobs at the fault of our ridiculous debt.
Therefore I tried to compromise with the Lord telling him that I would go when I was debt free, tightening my budget to extreme measures and putting up a good snowball fight. Yet I didn't wait for him to agree, I just assumed he would understand because I know he hears our cries and sees our struggles. The truth is, it's not my time, it's not my ability...it is his.
Though, through this assumption he has shown me my abilities through extreme measures and with this viewing I see that the time is near. My extremely tight budget to become debt free has become more restraint, being that when he shows me when and where I will go, without hesitation. Giving no opportunity for the devil to try an intervene or cloud our decisions.
Trough this journey I continue to march =0)